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I've always been the girl who let other's opinions control me. If someone didn't like it than i would change it. I wanted to be the girl who everyone liked. I wanted to be invited to all the parties and stuff but I never got that. As I got older I let society interfere with my social life. My best friends changed. My best friend found someone else. I moved around from table to table at lunch because I constantly felt like they all hated me. There were days were I sat alone and silently cried while everyone else was laughing and smiling. I sit back where I started, still constantly feeling that everyone is talking about me. Yes, there's a smile on my face most of the time. I laugh and smile and act normal but it's all fake. I go home and cry. I cry myself to sleep sometimes. They don't know that. I've lost 2 of my very close friends because they met someone else and liked them more than me. After a wile I gave up. I didn't care what happened anymore. I was done with it all. I couldn't take it, I was on the edge. It's not normal in my opinion but it's the life I live. I'm still faking it. Behind my smile is tears. There are times when I can't smile, someone will ask if I'm okay and that's where I cry like I've never cried before. I hate this town, these people and everything. okay sorry for waiting your time. bye
I've always been the girl who let other's opinions control me. If someone didn't like it than i would change it. I wanted to be the girl who everyone liked. I wanted to be invited to all the parties and stuff but I never got that. As I got older I let society interfere with my social life. My best friends changed. My best friend found someone else. I moved around from table to table at lunch because I constantly felt like they all hated me. There were days were I sat alone and silently cried while everyone else was laughing and smiling. I sit back where I started, still constantly feeling that everyone is talking about me. Yes, there's a smile on my face most of the time. I laugh and smile and act normal but it's all fake. I go home and cry. I cry myself to sleep sometimes. They don't know that. I've lost 2 of my very close friends because they met someone else and liked them more than me. After a wile I gave up. I didn't care what happened anymore. I was done with it all. I couldn't take it, I was on the edge. It's not normal in my opinion but it's the life I live. I'm still faking it. Behind my smile is tears. There are times when I can't smile, someone will ask if I'm okay and that's where I cry like I've never cried before. I hate this town, these people and everything. okay sorry for waiting your time. bye
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